The rift between Lindsay Lohan and her father, Michael Lohan, isn’t likely to heal anytime soon, considering what the troubled actress has to say about him.

“He’s put myself and my mother and my mom’s parents through so much hell. From the death threats to throwing shoes at my grandfather’s head and giving him a concussion to threatening to kill my mother in front of my little brother Dakota,” Lindsay tells Vanity Fair.

“I grew up really fast just because of the situations I was subjected to because of my father. My mom would try to shield me from that as much as possible, but I chose to get in the middle of my parents my entire life.”